You are not a missed connection,

But you are however, worth another chance at this. I’m really sorry that you feel the ways in which you do. I cannot say that I am not a little bit surprised as I didn’t think and cannot remember leaving things off in any way that should warrant having my messages removed. And if not for you I cannot see anyone else seeing them a) knowing they were for you and not telling you about them b) having them removed. It would just defy any and all logical sense. I mean I was very specific so anyone that read them would know that they were from me (as I referred to my best friends niece and even referred to you by your name, Olivia at one part of the post). So I wanted to apologize if by leaving these anonymous posts in a place searching to find someone with whom you believe a connection was missed and am giving fate its last chance to step in. I’m truly sorry if you are offended by this gesture. I just wanted to be honest and tell you that if it did find you in this chaotic and vast world wide web I could only look at it as a sign of some sort of connection that truly and honestly must’ve been missed. I always knew that there was something different about you. Something so different yet so special. You are like none I have ever or will ever meet again. That could be the only reason that 10+ years we have not spoke a word or caught a glimpse of one another and you are still tattooed in my mind. Anyway I just wanted to apologize if you didn’t see things the way that I did. If by some reason you saw this as the polar opposite and had a polar opposite thought or view on the significance of you finding my posts. I mean I have lived without you being part of my life for the past 10 years. Believe it or not, it wasn’t easy, and believe me I have made many romantically, just wrong decisions (for lacking any better terminology). Which just make the thought of enjoying my time with someone as special as you, all the more appealing. Like I just told you I always saw something so special about you. And because of that fact, the weird thing is that it doesn’t get easier with time. Cause we never were, it gets harder with time as I just see any window of opportunity closing more and more with everyday that passes. I have always known how beautiful you are inside and out. And want nothing more than for you to be treated how I believe you deserve to be and to have all of your dreams come true. I just don’t feel that anyone could come as close to giving you any of this as I could. As I know that no one would place you on the pedestal as high and out of reach as I have. But what’s hard is that I knew how many children you wanted so my guess is the next clown that comes around will be the luckiest SOB in the universe. I guess I just wanted to put that out there. I just wanted to put that out there cause if it was not you that had them removed then I just wanted them to see how high I place you and just know that they must have the intended recipient as well as author in a case of mistaken identity as how can anyone want to get between someone (myself) feeling for you the way in which I do especially with how highly I think of you. Anyway, like I started out by saying. I know that you are worth another chance LOL. So this is just another shot in the dark. As without these posts I literally feel helpless!